Saturday, September 20, 2008

Why is my excitement for her making me cry?

Well, everyone, here it is... my mom was admitted to Georgetown University... as well as some other prominent universities back east. I'm so damn excited and happy for her but I am so sad and depressed that she is going to leave us. When I received the news at work, I was excited but instantly drew a few tears because I knew she was leaving. Who would ever pass up Georgetown? That's right, nobody. Her dream did come true to be able to finish her degree and I'm sooo excited for her. I'm sad just thinking about not having my Sundays with her and my dad, our twice a month pedicures together, our shopping dates, dinner and movie dates and our shopping revenge days when we are mad at life or our husbands. I understand that she has to go, but, I just hope she comes back when she is done. My fear is that she won't come back to California. What would I do without her? She truly is my best friend. I feel like I have gotten sooo much closer to my parents this past year and I'm just really bummed that they won't be around to share in the excitement of my crazy ass boys growing up and, well, just everything. This is nothing out of the ordinary, i know... I'm just being a spoiled brat. Well, there it is... I'm just going to enjoy our holidays together as they are rapidly approaching and spend every moment that I have with her because it's going to be like culture shock when she's not here.

I actually spent the day with her today and that was fun... she treated me and the boys to lunch then we took Ryan out for a bit this afternoon and she bought them halloween costumes. Hans has been working alot of overtime and has been helping his old employer out and working over there on his days off from the Chino Airport. So, we haven't spent too much time together... We did have a dinner date tonight and took the boys. Surprisingly, again, the boys were really good at dinner. I think Aaron has gotten over his crappy mood swings at the dinner table. His attitude has completely changed when we go out now. Thank Goodness!

I was reminding mom that when she gets back from her trip to DC in a couple of weeks, we still have to take Aaron to Disneyland for his birthday. Then I reminded myself, its really just an excuse for me to go there too... I really want to go there with the park set up for Halloween. I love, love, love Disney's "The Nightmare Before Christmas". I actually have the entire Halloween Town that I set up during Halloween and Christmas. Ryan knows all of the characters from the movie because I'm such a freak about that movie. I'm trying to find some jack skellington items for the outside of the house for the holidays... we'll see how that goes.

anyways, Ryan had his first "tummy ache" the other night... that was NOT fun. He dumped in his shorts pretty much without knowing it, so once hans got him all cleaned up, we put him to bed and i reminded him that if his tummy started to hurt again, to not wait, just get up and to go to the bathroom. Well, within 20 minutes, Ryan is hauling ass into our bedroom/bathroom and says, "I'm SICK", so he runs to the bathroom and the next thing I hear is too disgusting for words and to even repeat. All i know is that my room starting reeking like death...I told hans He definately had to be the one to wipe that butt..I wasn't going anywhere near it. Poor thing.
Anyways, 1 class left before I am done with school.... Thank Goodness!! well, wouldn't you know, my first financial aid bill showed up... its no wonder people stay in school forever, they don't want to pay their financial aid... they just want to keep deferring their payments. JEEZ, it all makes sense now!

here are your words for today:

Ryan: Ryan tells my dad today, "papa, i need some money to go buy a halloween costume"...all of a sudden my dad pretends to fall asleep on the couch, snoring and all.
Aaron: Bird, T.V.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

TERRIBLE 2's....

Well, here I am again after how long? Work, school, family, etc....consuming all of my time. This month is very hectic as I knew that it would be. We have 4 birthdays this month in our family...3 of them are in 1 week. AGH!!! So basically, Aaron turned 2 on the 7th... and, yes. I am a bad mom. I didn't throw him a huge party like I do for Ryan. We basically just did a really nice family dinner here at the house with my family and then the next night we had a "pizza party" for Aaron at Round Table with Hans' family. I feel awful every day for not having a party, but, when you've got no expendable cash like you used to.... those are things that we can't just throw together anymore. So, mom and I decided that after the end of the month, we would just take Aaron by himself to Disneyland and spend the day with him. I know its not a party, but, I think its more for my guilt to spend the day at Disneyland with him.
My dads birthday was the next day, it was the 8th. So Hans and I invited mom and dad to dinner at Flemmings for Dad's birthday. Now, mind you... I know what I just said in the previous paragraph about not having money.... but, this is my dad! He does so much for us and gives us so much....I actually made a pretty decent commission check at work and told Hans that we have been pretty good and disciplined with our funds and I would really like to treat my dad (and mom) to a nice dinner. So, once he agreed, we made the reservation. Dinner was yummy of course. I asked Hans if he missed eating like that (we used to go there all the time) and he surprisingly said, "it wasn't that good tonight, I was kinda bummed". I was shocked at first, then I thought about it... he was so right! Dinner was yummy but it was not stupendous or out of this world, delicious. It was good. Just good. He made mention that he felt that the Newport Beach location served better tasting food, or it was just prepared better... something about the Rancho Cucamonga location not preparing the food to the best of it ability. oh, well...i was stoked, Flemmings is Flemmings to me... it had been a LONG time since we ate some goooood food!
Well, after that, came my birthday.... the famous 9/11 birthday girl. Let me just say, my birthday, not one of the better ones... I literally had a nervous breakdown at work and just cried the afternoon away. I got really mad at one of my bosses and all I could do was just cry out of built up aggravation and frustration. The CEO ended up in the office that day, and I tried to stay out of his way because I didn't want him to see me upset. Well, he came to talk to me, since we tend to get along pretty well, and I just avoided looking at him and he immediately knew that something was wrong.... He tried to cheer me up immediately and then became concerned and asked me what was wrong, if it was the job, etc.... I didn't want to complain or whine or anything, so I just told him that I was just frustrated and that I had already resolved the issue. Matt was super cool and knew that I was lying, so he just told me that if i needed anything, or EVER needed anything to call him. I knew he meant it and so I thanked him and told him that I appreciated the offer and Thanked him again for his concern. Well, I ended up going to school that night and class was so dang boring, I ended up leaving a bit early... we took a break around 8 and I apologized to my classmates and let them know that I had a lousy day at work, it was my birthday, and I just wanted to go home and be with my family... so, i left.
It just so happened that as I was getting onto the 71 fwy to go home, so was my husband!! he was getting on the freeway coming from the opposite direction... so i immediately called him and asked him if that was his truck driving in front of me on the 71..well, of course it was, he was at Nordstrom Rack with the boys birthday shopping for me. :) Nothing like waiting until the last minute... but gotta love it, he did good! Ryan, of course, tells me what they bought, not knowing that its a surprise, but in the end, i still ended up being surprised. Lots of goodies and finally some good company.
My mom and dad took Hans, myself and the boys to dinner for my birthday the following evening.... of course, i was worried that Aaron was going to have one of his tantrum episodes as soon as we put him in the highchair, like he so often does.... but to my absolute surprise, he didn't! Both boys, were the best that I have EVER seen them at dinner. Unbelievable. The past 3 dinners that I have had Aaron, he's been throwing tantrums, so we go visit the bathroom, give a spanking and sit him on the baby changing table until he's done crying. I guess after 3 times he finally figured out how he needed to behave when we are at a restaraunt.
Mom and Dad hooked up some awesome gifts too! wow!!! I was really excited.
So, now that we are on a birthday break for awhile...i just want to relax. My nephews birthday is at the end of the month... so i have some time to unwind and just play catch up with the house, school and hopefully work. School is over in 2 weeks, Thank Goodness!!
Well, I know that I definately have my work cut out for me, its like Aaron knew that he turned two and he's allowed to act like satan. Hans actually named him our "devil child". he is unlike any other kid I have ever come into contact with.... I have no clue what has come over him lately but I am about to lose my damn mind. He screams and cries and just like to throw tantrums...just because....! I can't handle it. I have become one of those mothers with the loud, obnoxious terrible child that I used to talk shit about every time I was out in public. I now have one of those children. The only thing that I don't have is a leash for him. Good lord! Well, I'm hoping that with all of the frustration that my child brings on me, something good has to come of it.

Words of the day:

Ryan: mommy, you're not a bad mommy! (i was telling my mom, that i'm such a bad mom for not noticing that Ryans shoes were a size and a half too small for him when we were at the Vans store yesterday buying him some new shoes) I felt like shit! that's what i get for letting him wear flip flops all summer long....I had no clue that his tennis shoes didn't fit him.

Aaron: mommy, i'm done. and then we waves his hands to say that he's done in sign language.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

alrighty then...

well, again, i let the time get the best of me...here i am to lay it all out on the internet for everyone to read....hahaha..

work is consuming all of my time, my husband hates my job, my kids are out of control, the house is never clean and the weeds in my backyard are about ready to kill me. anything else? oh, and we just came back from the river...oh, and taking the kids...not so relaxing. did i mention that it was 114 degrees this weekend? oh my!

Oh, so just an update, my husband and i got into a "tiff" the other night, so i didn't get mad, i got a haircut! of course, he got more mad but whatever!! he has this image in his mind that I should have long curly hair, blah, blah, blah... well, i was tired of looking like a hag. I cut it and it feels great. paybacks are a biatch husband, and guess what? you married one! :) just kidding...well, kind of. we're back on track now but don't mess with a Sakamoto...haven't you learned this by now?

Ryan is crazier and funnier everyday. He begged to go to my moms house last week, so i called and asked if mom and dad would be up to babysitting for the day... of course, dad says, "bring them over" then he goes to wake mom up and say "boys are coming over" and then he retreats to the backyard to do his gardening. Apparently when I dropped the boys off that morning, Ryan immediately went out to the back to ask my dad what he was doing... so dad says, " i'm watering the grass" Ryan asks "why?" and dad says, "to keep it green" and my smart ass kid says, "the grass is already green" and then goes inside... that's not all.... Mom was trying to tell Ryan something and he looks at her and says (not mean, but as a matter of fact) "you're not the boss"...of course, he had to say that when my dad was there.... so of course dad is laughing his butt off and that's now his favorite line to tell my mom... "you're not the boss".

Don't think that's it... Mr. Aaron is getting in on the action too... Aaron thinks he can walk around my moms house with his milk... as she calls him back to the kitchen, he yells back to her, "NO!" and then proceeds to make shooting noises at her. Of course to which my dad is still laughing...that kid got the Sakamoto and Lander stuborness. He is 100% bitchy and stubborn. He is awful! The older he is getting, the worse it is becoming... I really need to get him to chanel his frustrations and stuborness into some type of activity or something... he's killing me!!

here are your words:

Ryan: you're not the boss, who ponked the horn? mommy, you have 2 kids.

Aaron: mew,mew, mew (that's his shooting noise), NO! It's mine., Ryan.

Monday, August 4, 2008

monday...

well, our weekend at the river was great, of course... it was super hot, humid and we had a great time. We ended up taking Ryan with us so there wasn't much relaxing going on but we all had fun. Ryan was bored during the adult activities but looooved when we would beach and he got to play with his sand toys and jump in the water. We met more people from our "cobra family" and partied with them all weekend.
We headed home about 4pm yesterday and that's when the never ending drive home began... Hans' truck began to take a crap...it wouldn't shift over 2000 rpms...so, needless to say, we couldn't climb any hills and with towing the boat...it was not a fun ride home. Like I said, we left at 4 and didn't get home until 1:30-1:45ish... not fun. oh well,...
while we were trying to figure out what to do without blowing the truck up, Ryan comments to us, "Mater is a tow truck, he can hook your truck and take you home"... how freaking cute is that? Ryan is too much. Gotta love him... he lightened the mood for us during our stressful drive home.
oh well...i have so much to say but just not enough energy to say it... oh and I can't even think straight as I just killed the hugest, ugliest dairy spider in my kitchen. it was so scary that I just wanted to run away but then i figured that if i didn't kill it that it would end up in my room or in one of the boys rooms... eeewww...i'm getting all freaked out just thinking about it again... yuk!
anyways, i'll try to update everyone with the life of lander later this week.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Wow, where did that come from?

Well, we are back to the whole earthquake thing....We had quite a scare yesterday with that sudden sharp jolt that kept rolling and seemed neverending... I am somewhat okay with earthquakes, but what freaked me out yesterday was not having my kids with me. I know that they were with my mother in law and that they were probably safe but you just feel helpless not having your kids with you in the event of an emergency. The good Lord must have felt my helplessness because right after the quake had settled, I had called Hans to check on him and of course the phone lines had gone down... Well, i thought I'd give it another try to my mother in law, of course her house phone was down, but on the 3rd try, I was able to get thru to her cell phone! Thank Goodness... I needed to hear that my boys were safe and that they aren't losing their minds. they seemed to be okay and she assured me that they were so I stayed at work but still felt kind of uneasy. I then began to realize what was bothering me... it was what my dad has been lecturing me about for the past few years.... I needed to have a plan.
My dad has been on my ass for not having a disaster plan put in place for when the big one hits or some other type of disaster happens. I know that he is right and that I really need to do it, I just haven't made the time to do it. I'm just used to dad telling me what to do and I know I'm okay. I'm not used to initiating something, I'm just used to taking direction. Well, I just knew I was probably going to get the lecture about how this earthquake was nothing in comparison to what could be truly disasterous and there wasn't a plan of action.
Well, needless to say, I talked to Hans tonight about it and made him understand how dad wasn't just blowing smoke up our asses to be annoying... he is right. We NEED A PLAN!!! So, while Hans finally agreed, we started talking some things out and unfortunately we didn't get too far as I was starting to work on some homework but this is something that I'm not going to ignore anymore...I need to have this figured out and it needs to be soon. ;)

Well, with the lecture from dad comes some fun from Ryan. Well, after the crazy day we had yesterday, I get a call from my mother in law around 3 in the afternoon...I'm thinking "oh great, the kids are still going crazy, she's going to ask me to pick them up..." well, thank goodness that wasn't the case as i had sooo much to do at work...but the phone call was still pretty funny. Apparently, she noticed that Ryan was roaming her house "commando". WHAT?! She calls to ask me if Ryan came to her house with underwear this morning... I'm like, "yes, he does every day" well, apparently, he wasn't wearing any yesterday. I informed her that Ryan went to bed in underwear, woke up in them and he dressed himself. he's pretty good about wearing his underwear as he has a freakish obsession with them so it surprised me that he was at her house without underwear all day.. oh well... i guess he needed to "breathe". who knows...that kid is a mystery sometimes...

Well, all this stress of earthquakes, homework, work, fundings and the river trip has done no justice to my complexion! I now have some disgusting breakout and they are the huge craters that are under your skin. They freaking hurt! I'm so disgusted by them right now...I can't wait until this weekend, maybe once i can relax and float on my raft and drink me a cold alcoholic beverage my stress will begin to diminish and my complexion will clear up. how gross! I feel like i need to run out and get some Oxy Clean or something.... this is sooo wrong!


well, here are your words:

Ryan: Rocky made the house move (Ryan is blaming his grandma's cat for the earthquake)
Aaron: Ryaaaaaaa (ryan)

Sunday, July 27, 2008

hhmm...

so, here i am, back again... I finally remembered my email and password so now I can start writing again! I seem to have a case of short term memory.... too much stuff going on...
Well, we ended the last of our July birthday celebrations this weekend... we have been to a birthday party every weekend this month, and my husband is about to lose his damn mind. He claims i know too many people, blah, blah, blah.... whatever! well, he was starting to unwind knowing that the last birthday party was Saturday, now he's back in full stress mode trying to get ready to take off to the river this Friday... He has been in the driveway trying to put on these electric steps on his truck so that i won't be exposing anyone my "britney" when trying to get into the truck anymore... nasty, right?!
So, here it is, 9:30...Ryan has been fighting with me for the past hour and a half...he doesn't want to go to bed. He swears that there is a little boy "cripet" in his room and he can't sleep. Well, I informed him that the "cripet" is actually somewhere in my room and that I would go find him...Well, Ryan wasn't convinced so he followed me into my room and we pulled the couch off the wall, and sure enough, there was the "cripet". Ryan was SCREAMING like a damn little girl, so then I was freaking out because the cricket was going crazy and jumping all over the place. Needless to say, Ryan and I captured the "little boy cripet" and we're waiting for daddy to come in the house and remove him from our trap.
Today, the boys and I had lunch with mom, dad and Michael... Lunch went well, everyone was on their best behavior...well, not so much Ryan but it was still a nice, yummy lunch! Ryan suckered my dad into ordering him a sundae.... how could dad resist? Well, it was funny because when they brought the bill to my dad, Ryan still hadn't recieved his sundae. What cracked us all up was that Ryan noticed the bill arriving and was NOT having that!! He was ticked off that the waitress brought the bill ready to get us out of there and he didn't get his ice cream yet... of course, as we're all laughing, my dad assures Ryan that "don't worry, she's not getting any money until your ice cream gets here." So, Ryan immediately calmed down. too funny. I'm thinking with Ryan knowing the dining out drill I should probably start cooking at home a bit more.
Here's where its going to get a bit nasty... LOL... my mom graciously accepted my asking her to keep the boys overnight last night so that Hans and I could get some overdue yardwork done...My dad informs me that Ryan pooped so large, he is still in disbelief! I laughed and told him that I know my kid can poop something fierce...think back to the 1 piece of poop that got stuck in my toilet at 2 in the morning. HAHAHAH..I don't think he believed me, but now he does... AHAHAHAH...
anyways, i'm gonna head out...i'm still so tired. Here are your words for the day:

Aaron: 'no, it's mine!"
Ryan: Cripet

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

has it been two weeks? seriously?

well, Here I am, back in action, rec'd a paycheck and losing my mind from a group project from school. I thought that college entailed grown up school work, not jr. high stuff. I just had another group project to do and 2 of the 4 people didn't do a thing... and it wouldn't bother me too much but we ALL have to participate in the presentation tomm... I'm thinking that the 2 "slackers" should have to present it... that's just my opinion.

This past weekend we were at a birthday party and the party was at a bouncy house place... we all had such a blast! Ryan and Aaron thought they were superman and were sliding down the slides on their tummies with their feet and hands raised up. I thought it was the funniest thing. Now, Ryan wants to go to the "bouncy place" everyday, he's hooked! I'm contemplating having one of the kids birthday parties there now. It was fun for the adults too!

We visited Hans' sisters again this weekend and took the boys swimming. Ryan played so well with his little cousin Connor. It makes me realize what a good big brother he could be if he wasn't fighting with Aaron all the time.

Mom and I went to get our toes did this past sunday and found out that our nail ladies had sold the shop and moved on! I am soooo freaking bummed!! now I have to scout out several nail shops to find someone who is suitable to doing my nails. I am such a picky freak about my finger nails... not just anyone can do them... I used to cry when I would get a fill and they were ugly....literally.
oh well, at least the pedicure ladies were still there, they hooked us up for a good hour on our feet... i was in pedicure heaven that day.

Oh, we went to the river for the 4th of July... can i say CHAOS?!!! it was insane, but fun! We took my stepson and one of his friends... we had such a blast. I was forced to learn how to trailer the boat and surprisingly, I did extremely well. I made my husband promise not to yell at me if I were to mess anything up and I didn't! he was so pleased that he made me do it again the next day.... I was not too happy about that, but oh well, at least I don't feel like such a loser anymore, I'm figuring it out. By the way, for all of you Havasu lovers, SITE 6.... CRAZY!!!! Don't use it if you don't have to. Pay the money and launch at the marina. enough said. It was a freaking gauntlet trying to get the boats on the trailer at site 6. all the locals come down with their lawn chairs and ice chests full of beer and just antagonize the hell out of anyone trying to put their boats on the trailer, they purposely intimidate you so that you will fuck up. Then all the drunks start fighting and all kinds of madness is surrounding you...like I said, pay the money and launch at the Marina. or better yet, stay at the Nautical.

Can't wait to go back to the river, we will be attending the makeshift Cobra regatta again...I'm ready to get my tan on again... since the one from the 4th is peeling away as we speak.

here are your words:

Aaron: Connor!